Boyfriends don't like me.
At first it was something that just popped up every once in a while. By now I've accepted it as a solid fact. Female friends of mine will ultimately find themselves dating some guy who thinks that they're cheating on them with me. This latest episode had the added absurdity that it took place in Chicago, where I haven't been in going on two years. And it affected a silence between myself and one of my favorite people in the world. She didn't want him to be looking over her shoulder. I'm relieved to say that the silence has broken and a pink slip has been issued
He was annoyed when he found out that she was reading something I referred her to and that she found it hilarious
He deleted my fucking number from her phone
He tried to set me up with a girl he'd fucked a while back so that I wouldn't try and steal his girl. He said that he was just giving me the screen name of someone he thought I'd get along with based on what my friend had told him about me. I later found out that she never knew he was introducing me to anyone and all she'd said about me was that I was into theater and she wasn't trying to figure out a way to fuck me in secret. I haven't told the girl I was introduced to yet. I'm wondering if I even should.
I understand full well that I'm not the one worst hurt here. I can only imagine what my friends feel when they get put through this sort of thing. Given that it can grip me with a formidable rage for extended periods of time I can't say I would recommend the experience. Let there be no confusion; the vast majority of my desire to rearrange this guy comes from the fact that he treated one of my best friends like shit. The offenses that involve me specifically are but a fraction of the rage. But even that much is unhealthy to have pointed your way.
I may have reached a conclusion about all of this. The number of guys who have felt threatened by me easily exceeds the number of girls who I have known to be attracted to me. I'm wondering if the reason they think I'm so likely to steal their girlfriends away is because they in fact harbor a secret attraction to me. Maybe it just so happens that girls I know have the same taste in friends as the guys they tend to date do in secret crushes. Stranger things have been proven true.
This is not vanity on my part-- It means that I attract far more people I don't want to attract than I do and that sucks-- though I suppose I couldn't fault one for interpreting it as such.
So basically if it looks like the post below was written in a pissy mood you know about half of the reason. I'm not even sure if I'm going to say anything about the rest of it. Something in the works whose impetus was in fact both reasons may surface however. I'll let you know
Also, the people who see the people they know not as friends but as assets with potential value to be tapped when needed should only be allowed to associate with each other. This is the humane version of my assessment.